Two Very Different Worlds

This past week I took Alison to get her registered for Kindergarten. I am not sure why this was such a hard thing for me. It could be just the realization that she is growing up, that she is not the little toddler she was not too long ago. I am having a hard time with it all.

This week I also called about initiating Daniel into the school system too, but in a very different way. He remains in early intervention until he is 3 years old however, we have the option of exploring what the school system has to offer in the way of special education for him. It is a whole other world.

In the first world there is normal lingo of registration, kindergarten readiness, reading, school bus, first day of school and in the other world there is this language that I am not used to using. Things like evaluations, therapist--words that don't belong in an almost 2 year olds life.

It is still raw, it still hits me sometimes the way it did 9 months ago, that feeling of having your whole world taken and put upside down. I am still trying to catch my breath, still trying to make sense of it all. On the outside it may seem that I am okay but it is very much there close by the surface and I don't know when or if it will ever go away.