Predictions

I wanted so bad to make a prediction for this new year. I stopped short of coming right out and saying it so as not to jinx myself or especially Daniel.

I would love to be able to predict so many things for him. For the new year brings new hope that maybe this year he will walk, maybe this year he will talk, maybe this year we will know better how to care for our son.

In so many ways I have always thought of the new year as a new promise. A fresh start. Now we can wipe the slate clean and start over.

However, in Daniel's case I realize that it is a process and a continuation and in the new year we will see changes and improvement in all areas of growth, but that no one year will define his progress.

For Daniel and for all of us, it is the culmination of what has come before that sets the stage for what is to come.

2010 will be a good year, but it will be the same type of year with ups and downs, highs and lows, happiness and sadness, but most importantly a tremendous amount of love.

Running Dreams

I have dreams and I know that Jason does as well as everyone else in my family. I have dreams of Daniel running.

It's almost funny because even in my dreams I remind myself that Daniel can't even walk let alone run, but in my dreams he runs! He runs fast too. I always find myself explaining to whoever is there with me in the dream that he doesn't even walk! I tell them that he just runs but doesn't put it all together and realize that he can do both. It always seems to me to be so real and true and even second nature for him to run in my dream.

When I wake up I am often confused and have to remind myself of the reality of the situation. Often I can shrug it off and just move on, but there are some times when I just become very sad.

I just want one of my dreams to come true someday, just one.