When I first got accepted to Drexel University and got awarded a partial academic scholarship as well, I really thought that at any day "they" would come and take it away from me. I figured that at some point people would realize that they made a mistake, gave the award to the wrong person, by no means did I deserve it.
Fast forward some (okay many) number of years and this is the same way I feel about being a mom. I feel that at some point "they" are going to come along and say--"oops, we made a mistake you are not a good enough mom and don't deserve this." I don't know what makes me think this really. I try to be the best mom that I can possibly be to my kids and yet I always feel that I fall short, that I could be doing more and that some other mom would be better at raising them then me. I know (logically) that I am doing the best, but I can't help think this way. I wonder if other moms feel this way (parent of a child with disabilities or not)?
