When I first got accepted to Drexel University and got awarded a partial academic scholarship as well, I really thought that at any day "they" would come and take it away from me. I figured that at some point people would realize that they made a mistake, gave the award to the wrong person, by no means did I deserve it.
Fast forward some (okay many) number of years and this is the same way I feel about being a mom. I feel that at some point "they" are going to come along and say--"oops, we made a mistake you are not a good enough mom and don't deserve this." I don't know what makes me think this really. I try to be the best mom that I can possibly be to my kids and yet I always feel that I fall short, that I could be doing more and that some other mom would be better at raising them then me. I know (logically) that I am doing the best, but I can't help think this way. I wonder if other moms feel this way (parent of a child with disabilities or not)?
1 comments:
Lara:
I was always unsure if I was doing a good job...not great mind you, I was willing to settle for doing a good job. At some point in time, I realized that God gave me my children and all he asked was that I do the best I could. Did I feel I cod have done better? Absolutely!!
Not a day goes by that I don't play the "if only" game. If only I had had more time to be with them, if only I had more patience. If only I had less tired when they wanted to play a game, etc. There is not a parent alive who doesn't question their skills to parent. I truly believe God gives us challenges but we are capable of handling them because we love our kids and would do anything for them. I always questioned how good I was doing as a parent. But I now know that parents need only look at their kids to know if they are doing a good job. Are your kids kind? Do they care about others? Do they treat others as you would want to be treated? Are they happy? Do they listen to their teachers and do the best they are capable of doing in all things. Are you proud of how they act? In other words, do you see your kids and smile because you know you helped mold them into sweet, kind, caring individuals? I think all God asks is that we parent, that is take responsibility and don't be afraid to say no. Children will rise to anything as long as they know you have their back and they know you are the boss. Hang in there dear, praise your kids, show them you love them no matter what. You are a great mother...never doubt it. :) I know you are!
Post a Comment